Exploration of spirituality, relationships, gender, orientation, politics, with alot of humor...basically whatever I feel like writing about.
Friday, June 20
Instructions for Station #5
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There's something to be said about hard places, rocks and being stuck between them. Some people become stronger for the struggle - good things like patience and endurance grow while trapped between injustice and justice. Still, others simply saw off their arm in lieu of dying trapped and alone in the wilderness. I think I need to stay in the struggle, because I think that is where we may finally see a very unpopular truth...that injustice may be the place we learn the most about ourselves~ on both the mean and right sides of the injustice. Think about it. Still, my God-given prerogative* is to also confront social injustice. One way is to write. It's one thing I can do.
Poetry for Those So Inclined to Read
Song of Us Broken hearts plucked like strings on and old guitar~ played, tuned, busted ragged and hanging at their tenuous best. Careless Careless hand, waving all in the wrong directions. Fingers framing, always, the backside of opportunity- gleefully glad-handing the charlatan; the promise.
Learn magic if you must, to keep you busy- a little trick or two to lighten up your moody disposition. But don't you break my heart again! Not with your wanton reach, and especially not your grasping.
Species Genus Family Order
Simple words for simple men. Complex words for complex men. Food for the lion, shelter for the bird. Food, shelter, hearing, reading, "I love you"; The lion and the bird though never jealous, are nonetheless speechless. And though not really poorer for it, I have not the words to say why. Intermingle Careening, side to side with flowers and ashes flying around me, and I, without remorse am finding my way.
Some give me a 10% chance. I, however, raise my hands up in jubilation; onlookers hold onto me they raise me up on a wave and they give me away.
Therefore he takes me up because I have given in so that ashes and flowers lie around us like a spent wedding party.
My love is weighing me down, down around his feet, in the sweet organic dirt of my birth. I will not want to leave this place, but he assures me I must.
Creed of the Albino Salamander You can see what you like with your steady eyes, steady as a plank, determining everything and giving it meaning.
The way you take all of it in reminds me of a glutton. Stop eating - your eyes are bigger than you know. Use your finger like a stick, quick, before anything hits your intestine.
Don't digest what you see, just eat and vomit partially digested bits of ideas. Don't follow the subtlety of what you can't see through to its natural conclusion -- constrict - depress - don't put in anything real and complete.
Follow that hand with your eyes - - no one else is observing this - just as it reaches that place of discomfort, turn away. Avoid guilt by association.
You cannot follow even the shadow, you cannot. In that nether region is heresy and hearsay. Stick with what you have heard, you cannot know more or you would explode.
Avert your eyes, though you are blind, especially when frightened. Don't see scary things so you can't know if you'll survive. Keep your translucent hands up to block your blind eyes.
Keep still Stay invisible Don't make sudden movements and, for God's sake, don't say a word. If you saw something different than what you know just tell them you're blind or don't talk at all. The Great Plunge
When the air returned to my lungs and my head got off the anecdotal ferris wheel, dirty footprints led the way --- "Good ridance" I remarked to no one in particular.
There was no better time to take inventory --- count out authentic (in lieu of habit and proxy) like crisp dollar bills ---
and come up, not just breathing again but grabbing tight holding on, and screaming airlessly (while the ground flew out from under me) "I have no idea why(?), but give me more!"
Looking at me then you would have thought I owned the bank cashed it all in, bought the circus and hung the moon. But I straddled these empires one hand holding the key the other holding me.
Ancient Genes
You smell like the earth,
You smell like round and forever,
You smell of everything bright and dappled,
of crimson,
of India textiles,
and rain--
rain that's settled on waking grasses,
And you smell like that even in my head,
even when you've gone,
even when I've never met you.
You smell like wild strawberries,
You smell like my mother's milk,
You smell of gravel under my foot,
of smoke off a cathedral candle
and unpretentious incense
permeating, walking out with me,
And you smell like this
in my memory,
in my future,
my imagination,
in my skin and in my hair.
You smell like love's sweat,
You smell like old browned book pages,
You smell of everything that sits empty in my stomach,
of the dirt & rock & water of my mountain trail,
And you smell like
Ghandi,
Mother Teresa,
Johnny Depp--
You smell like late night,
minus the forgetting and the hangover,
just every part of me wrapped around you.
You smell like what I want--
What I want to call right,
want to call safe
and real,
salt and stone--Home.
I want you to waft and
settle into the fabric of my clothes,
and my skin's fingers can rest
even though there's no touching,
no speaking in your ear
like Saturday morning,
like NPR,
like laughing and fighting,
And even if I can't taste your trust,
your promise,
your electric and metallic
sweet self.
I want the idea of you
to fill the air around my head--
and I will take you in deeply,
move my hands to my face
in an act of spiritual consolation and grief
I will bring you close to me
I will let you settle on me
I will carry you around
like through the streets,
through the ancient paths
of Israel.
Stay with me now,
not so lightly --like the outside on a visitor,
like pine & cedar,
like clay resting in my fingers--until I get used to this,
until your familiarity nearly sounds.
You smell like ancient objects,
You smell like grandpa's garage,
You smell of a Bedouin's tent,
of belief,
of darkness without fear,
and skin--skin,
carrying the scent of water & earth &
other things I can't quite place.
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